Messages Come Out Of No Where Sometimes That Amaze Me

 My Mother - My Love

Let me start this by saying that at the age of 3 my Mother had a stroke that left her whole left side paralyzed,  It's funny how she still lived a full life, but with many struggles.  As an empath I ingested some of the pain I saw.

I remember the day she was following us to the bus stop (my brother and I), and a kid in the neighborhood asked me what was wrong with her?  What, I said", did she say something to you?  No, "he said" I mean the way she walks, and her hand is all crippled up?  That was the day I learned that my Mother wasn't like other Mother's.  I felt some grief for her, and that is the day I noticed her struggles and saw her in a different light.  I became the "guardian" of her in a way or her protector.

I then started to notice when kids would make fun of her, and I wanted to just go and push them.  My Mother, did a good job of hiding her hand by pulling down her sleeve.  Things were difficult for her, but she made due and she tried her hardest to be "normal". 

When my Father passed away, I moved in to help her and to keep her safe at home.  She was always afraid her whole life that someone would "put her away", as she called it.   I had so much love for her that I don't even think she understood how much.  She was always priority, as well as my children were.  I became a single mother during all the moving in and taking care of her.  I'm sure that's a whole other story - ha

Well one day in October 2011, I went over my friends house - Deb.  She had invited me to play cards with her and her Mother.  We had fun, but I'm not one to pay attention to all these rules and things - LOL  We were having drinks, and I turned around and looked at them both and said, "My Mother is going to pass in May!"  What?  What do you mean - we had no idea she was sick?  I said, well she isn't sick, and I don't know why I even said that?  We all looked at each other and were all amazed by how it just flowed out of my mouth.

So I kept thinking about it, and I watched.  In December, I noticed my job having some financial issues and I then sensed that I would be losing my job.  I packed all my belongings (never telling a soul that I knew).  In January, my friend Kathy came into my office, and told me that I was going to be laid-off.  I laughed, and said I already knew that and could sense it, and I've gotten ready for it - LOL.  Here's all my packed boxes.  She was amazed.

I suddenly thought OMG - it's happening!  It's really happening!  They are going to let me stay home with my Mother before she goes!  Oh no... I then sat down, and had a conversation with my guides - I said I think I will never go be able to go back to work if she passes.  The pain will be too great to try to find a job.  I love that you wanted me to stay home, but I feel this could be very bad for me emotionally.

I swear to God - I had started panicking, and I applied for all kinds of jobs.  I had daily conversations telepathically.   I had to be working or this wasn't going to be good! 

Within two weeks my prayers were answered, a former co-worker Michele reached out to me and said - "are you looking for a job?"  I said YES!  We had been best friends at another job, and we were very close.  She said, oh I can help you with that (really?), and she did.

I got hired in my current position and started working on February 19th, 2012.  I love my job.

In April, my mother started being in pain.  Out of the blue, out of no where.  I took a deep breath, and I knew it was coming..May was right around the corner.  I cried myself to sleep a lot during this time.

She went for tests, and they said her pancreas was blocked suddenly, and she needed to have surgery.  I started praying..  I remember her doctor telling me "never let her have surgery".  OMG - it's happening.  I could only tell my close friends or people might think I'm over reacting.  I tried to tell her no don't have the operation, but she had to.  She thought I was being silly, "oh stop that, I will be fine".  But I knew she wouldn't be, so I just smiled and agreed with her.

The operation came, and went and I had such a sign of relief!  Thank you God!  She came out of it fine.

She moved to a rehabilitation center, and was doing great!  I remember clearly when I got the call.  She was there for weeks.  I was out having fun with friends,  The center called, and said that my mother had been unresponsive for a good hour, and that they were taking her to the emergency room.  I knew it was over, and that she was gone... It was May 15th, 2012.

When she arrived, I saw them get her in a room so the Docs could look her over and then, just then, I saw her climb out of her body and start dancing!!  She was so happy; she had never danced a day in her life.  She was finally free of that terrible body!  

She was finally free, totally free...  She smiled at me and waved goodbye...

 Thank you my wonderful Guides/Angels.  

I'm so blessed in this lifetime! She was a wonderful Mother, and with all her struggles, I'm so happy she was mine!